17 March 2012

letter to heaven


Dear David

How are you? 
I am fine and coping somehow. 

I guess we only know how hard it is when we actually start doing things ourselves properly. 

So many learning curves in the studio. 
Glaze tests, new shapes, endless trial and error. 
Keep facing wall after wall that I fail to climb. 
I lose focus at times. 


Hearing about tremendous struggles in Japan’s recovery, 
it makes me think how small whatever I could do will be. 
I self doubt. I lose confidence. 

When I got stuck, you were at the other side of the phone, 
trying to give me advice. 
Now is the time that your support is most needed 
but I will have to just struggle. 


But that’s the way you established yourself. 
Something else that I learnt from you, so I must carry on. 

Fresh buds on the cherry tree in front of the studio. Spring is here. 
There is so much to do. 
Now I will walk alone. A long long way. One step at a time. 
Remembering to be thankful each day. xm

11 comments:

  1. This is a beautiful letter to your friend.
    I miss someone like this.
    You are right, one step, then another.
    xx
    julie

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    1. sweet Julie, thank you for your message as always. x m

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  2. Hang on to those cherry blossoms and the promise they are carrying. And remember, you're not alone even when at times it may feel like you are.
    XRoos

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    1. Thank you Roos. Your strength is so admiring and my inspiration.

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  3. I imagine he still speaks to you. it is a beautiful letter

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    1. Yes, Jill I would hope so. David is always in my soul.

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  4. What we can do on our own is very little, that's why we all are here to help each other :D Keep your chin up!mx

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    1. Thank you Mizuyo-san. Yes, I must remember that. xm

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  5. Oh Maki you break my heart x

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    1. oh, sorry Kathryn. i will leave sadness and start putting a brave face. x m

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    2. No no, don't apologise Maki, we all have to express our grief somehow. Your words are so beautiful, but yes, I hope you will move towards happiness again soon x

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