letter to heaven

Dear David

How are you? 

I am fine and coping somehow. 

I guess we only know how hard it is when we actually start doing things ourselves properly. 

So many learning curves in the studio. 

Glaze tests, new shapes, endless trial and error. 

Keep facing wall after wall that I fail to climb. 

I lose focus at times. 

Hearing about tremendous struggles in Japan’s recovery, 

it makes me think how small whatever I could do will be. 

I self doubt. I lose confidence. 

When I got stuck, you were at the other side of the phone, 

trying to give me advice. 

Now is the time that your support is most needed 

but I will have to just struggle. 

But that’s the way you established yourself. 

Something else that I learnt from you, so I must carry on. 

Fresh buds on the cherry tree in front of the studio. Spring is here. 

There is so much to do. 

Now I will walk alone. A long long way. One step at a time. 

Remembering to be thankful each day. xm